Impulsive year

Conclusion of this year: Impulsive and irrational year.

All of my decisions were made by desires, without thinking deeply. I think most of decisions I made this year probably was made by emotional feelings. But, in the other hand, I also think my decisions were made by my intuition.

This kind of behavior I've done will make me to be pessimistic. I start to concern that after these sweet pleasures, all I left probably will be a heap of unreal, visionary illusions, and in the end, it's hard to reach the dream you want to fulfill.

I just can't help to think this way, especially when things get involved with money.

However, the most big issue isn't money problem, I think it is you didn't insist what you want, so you are easily to get in to temptation by everything.

Turning back to look, the problem is not what you've made, is more like what you regretted after you done it. I knew that I have this big defect,so I would like to give myself an advice " Don't look back, just go forward it.".

You will get what you want after you stop to regret what you have done.

There is nothing wrong to be impulsive, sometimes, maybe it makes thing getting better than ever. Who knows?

How deep is the Ocean?

[ Part I ]

Kid-  How deep is the Ocean?

Lloyd- Seven miles at its deepest point, but on average,six miles as a rule of thumb.

Lloyd- But no fish could live there.        

Lloyd- There is no light, of course, and the pressure is far too great. Any human found themselves at the level, well, they would die immediately.       

Lloyd- They would impolde. They wouldn't stand a chance.        

Lloyd- But in anwser to your question, the ocean is six miles deep. 

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[ Part II ]

Oliver- Do you often feel like this?

Lloyd- Like what?

Oliver- Tired? Down in the dumps?

Lloyd- Quite often.

Oliver- How long for it?

Lloyd- Since I was about your age, I suppose.

Oliver- What does it feel like?

Lloyd- Like being underwater.

Oliver- Is that why you became a marine biologist?

Lloyd- Maybe, yeah.

Oliver- Have you always liked fish?

Lloyd- I suppose so. I just sort of drifted into it, really. No pun intended.

Oliver- And does Mum mind?

Lloyd- I think she'd rather I earnt more money.

Oliver- No, you've being underwater.

Lloyd- Yeah, no. I'm sure she'd rather I wasn't.

       - It's not very pleasant.

Oliver- The Ocean is six miles deep, isn't it?

Lloyd- Well remembered. Yeah.

Quotes from [ submarine, 2010]

不知道該找誰說話

我想找個人說話，但是不知道該找誰說話。



對於身邊周遭的朋友似乎不知道該說些什麼。


總是抱怨別人太無聊，
我否定別人的生活價值。

對別人說的話感到很厭倦，我只覺得煩悶。
相處有點累，但是又不甘寂寞。


心底總是空空的，
事情會好轉嗎?


想太多，做的太少。
我什麼也不做荒廢時間。 

但是也不是存然荒廢時間，還是做著一些自己必須要做的事。
別人要求你要做的事。

so,
what should I do to drive out such feeling?

Do you have any ideas?

學習筆記

學習:

二胡

劍道

練習:

書法

佛法

閱讀與寫作

考試檢測:

英文

學習第三外語

習慣:

跑步與游泳

閱讀與寫作

創作

Boy meets Girl, Leos Carax

失戀的Alex 聽著隨身唱片來到了橋上，看見了一對戀人接吻。 他停下來凝視片刻，過不了多久後，他掏出硬幣投向這對戀人。

真是一場好的表演。

戀人的世界是旋轉的 ，Alex的世界是靜止的。 Carax 用這樣的手法來表現真的是太到味了，這是我最喜歡的一幕，而剛好，這也是預告的片段。

La Notte

Lidia : I feel like dying because I no longer love you. That’s why I’m desperate. I wish I were old, my life’s devoted to you all. I wish I no longer existed, because I can’t love you. That’s the thought which came to me in the night club, when you were so bored.

Giovanni : But if this is true, if you feel like dying…, it means you still love me.

Lidia : No. it’s only pity. 　　

Giovanni : I never gave you anything, I was completely unaware. I go on wasting my life,l ike a fool…, taking without giving or giving too little. If you mean I haven’t much to give,you may be right. 　　

Lidia : I used to spend afternoons reading in bed. Tommaso would call and find me there. He could have taken me, I wouldn’t have resisted, out of boredom. But he was satisfied to watch me as I read. All those purposeless books. Two hundred pages a day, I read so quickly. 　　

Giovanni : I’ve been selfish. Now I realize that what we give others comes back to us. 　　

Lidia : Do they think their music will improve the day? 　　

Giovanni : Lidia, let’s settle this. Let’s try to hang on to something we are sure of. I love you. I’m sure I’m still in love with you. What more can I say? Let’s go home. 　　

---For a whike of silenent time----

Lidia : When I awake this morning, you were still asleep. As I awake I heard your gentle breathing. I saw your closed eyes, beneath wisps of stray hair…, and I was deeply moved. I wanted to cry out to wake you, but you slept so deeply, so soundly. In the half light your skin glowed with life…so warm and sweet I wanted to kiss it, but I was afraid to wake you, I was afraid of you awake in my arms again. Instead,I wanted something no one could take from me, mine alone…this eternal image of you. Beyond your face I saw a pure, beautiful vision…, showing us in the perspective of my whole life…, all the years to come, even all the years past. This was the most miraculous thing to feel for the first time that you had always been mine. This night would go on for ever…united with your warmth, your thought, your will. At that moment I realized how much I loved you,Lidia.

I wept with the intensity of the emotion. For I felt this must never end…, we would remain like this all our lives…, not only close but belonging to each other…, in a way that nothing could ever destroy, except the apathy of habit, the only threat. Then you wakened and smiling, put your arms around me, kissed me, and I felt there was nothing to fear. We could always be as we were at the moment…bound by strange ties than time and bit.

Giovanni : Who wrote that? 　　 　

Lidia : You did.

不要砍山河

近日以來，對馬政府失望到極致。

除了討論熱烈的瘦肉精到最近最新的都市更都問題在在顯示馬政府就是個腐敗無能的政府。

現在山林河海濕地又要在被政府賣掉，這個島嶼的土地，不斷地貪婪給啃噬。

國破山河亡，是古時候國家被外敵入侵滅國的悲哀之詞，現在卻是自己的國家讓自己的山河滅亡，這樣的政府怎麼可能保護台灣的人民呢?



http://pots.tw/node/10585

霍爾

隔了幾年後，再看一次宮崎駿的 [ 霍爾的移動城堡 ] ，劇情跟觀後感不是我要在這裡討論的東西...。 而是對於霍爾這個角色，有了一些微妙的感覺。

再看一次後，發現自己跟霍爾的個性還蠻相似的，除了我不是擁有迷人出色的外貌和魔法師這幾點。霍爾那有點自私，嘻皮笑臉帶過，對荒野女巫的態度，"一開始我覺得她很有趣，所以就自己就主動地接近她，後來發現她其實不是這麼有趣我就開始疏遠她......。"

他的那種有點輕浮、任性，看似光鮮亮麗其實內心膽小懦弱，越想越覺得跟霍爾這個角色產生某種共鳴。

"為什麼呢? 我已經逃避夠久了，這些年我終於找到用死也要保護的人，就是妳...!"

他找到了蘇菲，生命因此而有價值；而我，雖然已經不像去年或是前年迷茫，心中已經開始小小小的目標，就像霍爾一樣，他也是沒有放棄他最初遇見的蘇菲。

我跟我的"蘇菲"相信也在很小的時候就遇見了，雖然現在還沒找到"她"，但是我知道時間還有"蘇菲"也會在我找她的時候跟她相遇。("蘇菲"可以是人，可以是事情，可以是物品，可以是信念，可以是價值。)

Sonic Youth - Superstar

I would like to introduce this song which i recently heard.

Actually I didn't listen too many songs of Sonic Youth, but they always has so many amazing songs, like their most famous song,《 teenage riot》.

Tonight, I would like to enjoy the song, Superstar.

Always the Top 1 song in my heart

Since I heard this song from the film , 《The Tracey Fragment》, I totally in love with this song《 Where is My Mind 》 from Pixies, but this song was appeared in 《 Fight Club 》 most early.

Why I love this song so much? I really do think this song has some magics! I feel this song was mixed with psychedelic, pain and hope, when these all elements add together which were caused obsession and you never forget it.

Of course, there has so many famous bands, singers covered 《 Where is my Mind》, but I still feel the original version is the best!

---Lyrics---

Stop

With your feet on the air and your head on the ground

Try this trick and spin it, yeah

Your head will collapse if there's nothing in it

And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Way out in the water, see it swimming

I was swimming in the Caribbean

Animals were hiding behind the rock

Except for little fish

When they told me east is west trying to talk to me, coy koi

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Way out in the water, see it

swimming